Very Confused!

[caralyna]

I'm having a huge problem, about a year ago i lived with an ex, my relationship with him started to get violent and i began seeing thing's and a few month's passed and i started hearing thing's also.

Problem is we broke up before October last year and i still hear and see thing's but now i also feel something touching me and stroking my hair. I constantly feel liking I'm being watched and I've tried getting help before but every time i went onto a site to get help my email would stop working so i couldn't activate the account's or the page i was on would freeze before i could press submit or my laptop would just suddenly turn off even if it's plugged in, I work with computer's so i know it's not my laptop.

A couple of week's ago i woke up and felt weird, my eye's were blurry and i couldn't see very well and i felt sick, At that exact moment my brother was shouting at the dog because the dog was outside my door whining and he wouldn't come inside. My brother threatened the dog and i started to feel strange, then my brother raced out of his room and went to kick the dog downstairs and i don't know how but i somehow just appeared next to my bedroom door and i hit the door with my hand and it actually took the whole door and frame off of the wall. I blacked out after that but apparently i tried to throw the door at my brother and when that failed i actually attacked him, Honestly, I'm terrified of my brother I've seen him fight and he scares me so i wouldn't even dream of fighting him. Strange thing was he bent one of my finger's and it came out of place and i didn't feel it, when i snapped out of whatever it was, i was in the procedure of putting it back in place, i still didn't feel it though.

I can't get angry, I get sick when i get angry and i burst down crying it's just not possible for me to be violent...After that day I've been feeling really strange, i just feel like something isn't right or like something is going to happen.

When i lived alone my dog's would sleep on my bed with me and would start barking randomly at nothing, I've had my bed shake and light's turn on and off as well as TV's door's opening and shutting.

I also have to say that i have been diagnosed with a type of psychotic problem they won't give me a name. but it isn't that I'm fine it all started when i asked my doctor for sleeping medication because i couldn't sleep anymore. No one believes me, I'm scared, I've tried all sort's of medication and i still hear/see/feel things. I know what the problem is and i admit is is making me sick because i feel alone. No one listens to me, no one will help me. I just want to be myself again. I used to be happy and go out a lot and laugh about everything. I don't feel depressed and I'm not unhappy about anything i just get the feeling of pure evil and when something scares me i sense someone or thing laughing.

I've had a reading done before and they told me i should get help from a church but just recently, I've lost all my belief's but i was happy that someone told me i wasn't crazy. It's hard growing up and seeing thing's and no one believing you. Please don't laugh and please don't say I'm crazy.

I just want help and i want people to believe me for once, i apologize for my spelling and grammar I actually do feel very tired and sick this moment, I'm sorry i haven't explained very well also, I'm nervous when i explain this issue because just about everyone i say it too just classes me as stupid and insane. Please don't hesitate to ask me any question's i will answer as long as it isn't immature. I'm really scared and i can't think straight anymore. Thank you for reading it means a lot and i look forward to any advice or help.

[angelica777]

hugs to u catalyna! hang in there.

[kite952]

I know I am still new but perhaps I can help. At a younger age I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia, it can make you lose touch with reality, believing you hear, feel, and see things that are not real. It can warp your reality. Every day before I take my medication I can feel it as if someone is just waiting for the right moment to grab me and what not. But every time I look behind me or whatnot nothing is there. But even so that might not be the case for you. I'm still quit new to this stuff but... perhaps you've been possessed, it can explain some of your symptoms. But again I am not precise in that department. Tho I do recommend you ask your doctor about Schizophrenia. They can prescribe medication that will be able to suppress the things that make reality warp. It's not perfect, but it can help. It's how I get by day to day. If not I believe I would of gone crazy along time ago. Oh, and some extra advice, while you don't take the medication and still see things, remember what is real, and what is fake. But do not misjudge. It is a mental problem and can make you lose your grip on what you think has been real, and in turn has been unreal. When I get the feeling someone is watching me I just chalk it up to my mind playing tricks and move on, but my case is a bit different from just Schizophrenia, but anyway. I hope this helps.

With Love,
Boba Fett

[GypsyMoon]

We do completly believe you and all of us are here for you.
we need more info like did you open a door perhaps?
practise the occult or dabbled into anything occult or demonic?
whats your religious back ground?
your parents religious back ground?
also some sleep meds like Ambien can cause vivid hallucinations and sleep paryalsis.
we are here for you and will get to the bottom of this. If you are afraid or want a paranormal investigation we can contact a TAPS affiliated investigators for you in your area.
let them get a complete sweep of emf readings and everything else.
again I am so sorry I havent been feeling well I am here though if you need me.

[caralyna]

I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia but it's taken them 6 years to decide that. I completely disagree with them, i feel fine i can do anything like normal, i can go to work, go out with friends. It's not just me that has witnessed these things either. I've had friends hear and see things too, it's not just me and I'm refusing to take any medication because 1, i don't believe in taking medication unless its desperately needed. 2, i "have" tried the meds but they REALLY hurt my head. I've had scans and all sorts of tests and nothing indicates a problem. Also i have an A level in psychology and when these things began to happen i always thought of logical explanations but i can't thing of any anymore. I don't mess with anything paranormal because i know what could happen. I do own tarot cards and angel cards but they were a present from my ex, I've never used them.

I'm sorry if i sound harsh, i do get agitated when people mention medical issue's, I've became sick of hearing people saying it to me.
I don't live in the USA so it's extremely hard to find an team to come and help me. I live in the UK and the problems seem to follow me and they also seem to happen to whoever i speak to in person. My friends are saying they are having the problems too now. I've had no end of people telling me i have an entity of some sort following me or i am possessed or theres a bad energy surrounding me. I do get scared sometimes, I've never been hurt but it is shocking. I took some photo's earlier today and when i checked them back on the camera, the pictures of me in them have a kind of white mist either above me or to the left side.

Also my dogs keep barking at nothing, for example the other morning they were barking at a chair until finally i sat in it and they stopped. Just for your information i have 7 dogs and they all barked lol that creeped me out because after they stopped it was like they were trying to look behind me or around me. ;D

[GypsyMoon]

Its okay I am from the UK.
I can still get a team in there if you like.
did they just diagnose you with schitzo due to the voices?
Or have you had symptoms that raised a flag for em?
Also I believe that even if you do have a "mental disorder" I honestly from what you tell me, Do not know without further Evaluation" I still think you might have paranormal issues also.

[caralyna]

Feb 26, 2011 7:17:54 GMT -5 caralyna said:

I'm having a huge problem, about a year ago i lived with an ex, my relationship with him started to get violent and i began seeing thing's and a few month's passed and i started hearing thing's also.

Problem is we broke up before October last year and i still hear and see thing's but now i also feel something touching me and stroking my hair. I constantly feel liking I'm being watched and I've tried getting help before but every time i went onto a site to get help my email would stop working so i couldn't activate the account's or the page i was on would freeze before i could press submit or my laptop would just suddenly turn off even if it's plugged in, I work with computer's so i know it's not my laptop.

A couple of week's ago i woke up and felt weird, my eye's were blurry and i couldn't see very well and i felt sick, At that exact moment my brother was shouting at the dog because the dog was outside my door whining and he wouldn't come inside. My brother threatened the dog and i started to feel strange, then my brother raced out of his room and went to kick the dog downstairs and i don't know how but i somehow just appeared next to my bedroom door and i hit the door with my hand and it actually took the whole door and frame off of the wall. I blacked out after that but apparently i tried to throw the door at my brother and when that failed i actually attacked him, Honestly, I'm terrified of my brother I've seen him fight and he scares me so i wouldn't even dream of fighting him. Strange thing was he bent one of my finger's and it came out of place and i didn't feel it, when i snapped out of whatever it was, i was in the procedure of putting it back in place, i still didn't feel it though.

I can't get angry, I get sick when i get angry and i burst down crying it's just not possible for me to be violent...After that day I've been feeling really strange, i just feel like something isn't right or like something is going to happen.

When i lived alone my dog's would sleep on my bed with me and would start barking randomly at nothing, I've had my bed shake and light's turn on and off as well as TV's door's opening and shutting.

I also have to say that i have been diagnosed with a type of psychotic problem they won't give me a name. but it isn't that I'm fine it all started when i asked my doctor for sleeping medication because i couldn't sleep anymore. No one believes me, I'm scared, I've tried all sort's of medication and i still hear/see/feel things. I know what the problem is and i admit is is making me sick because i feel alone. No one listens to me, no one will help me. I just want to be myself again. I used to be happy and go out a lot and laugh about everything. I don't feel depressed and I'm not unhappy about anything i just get the feeling of pure evil and when something scares me i sense someone or thing laughing.

I've had a reading done before and they told me i should get help from a church but just recently, I've lost all my belief's but i was happy that someone told me i wasn't crazy. It's hard growing up and seeing thing's and no one believing you. Please don't laugh and please don't say I'm crazy.

I just want help and i want people to believe me for once, i apologize for my spelling and grammar I actually do feel very tired and sick this moment, I'm sorry i haven't explained very well also, I'm nervous when i explain this issue because just about everyone i say it too just classes me as stupid and insane. Please don't hesitate to ask me any question's i will answer as long as it isn't immature. I'm really scared and i can't think straight anymore. Thank you for reading it means a lot and i look forward to any advice or help.

My paranormal problem has gotten so much worse. My whole family is hearing bangs, my dad is seeing things. (which is so good because he isn't a believer.) He doesn't admit he is seeing them but he told my mum and she told me. The banging is getting a lot louder and i have to stay up with my dogs most nights because they wake everyone up with barking and whilst I'm downstairs, i hear footsteps walking from one room to another upstairs and that's impossible because everyone has locks on their doors which they lock when they sleep and they all sleep at the same time.

This will sound silly but if you've ever watched the movie 'Grudge' that noise the ghost make? I keep hearing that when i know everyone's sleeping or out. Also while i was outside with the dogs the other night i heard this supernatural growl and it scared the dogs and me, I've grew up with foxes so i know it isn't one of them. The growl got louder and closer the longer i stayed and looked in the direction of it which was just confusing because there was nothing there to cause it.

Also my bedroom keeps getting so cold i have to use 7 blankets while i'm trying to sleep to stay warm even though we're having heat waves. it's nothing natural because if i stand in the doorway between the bedroom and the hallway you can feel how much of a difference there is in the temperature. I also feel something watching me constantly and my ears tend to vibrate when i get that feeling. I know it's not me seeing things, imagining it or hearing thing's because my family is now experiencing it also as well as my dogs.

I am generally scared now, i'm too scared to sleep at night and i only sleep during the day if i know there are people awake and in the other room. I'm too old to acting this way, i really need help now because i'm due to move into my own place soon and i don't know how it's going to work if i can't sleep without someone being with me.

[angelica777]

Hey Catalina! Sorry, but I have been away from the board for awhile, lots going on in my world! I am so sorry about the problems you have been experiencing. The lack of sleep and fear of the next paranormal event can make life feel unbearable. Do not give up!
Have you been keeping a log of activities? If not, grab a notebook and keep it nearby. A binder with looseleaf in several common areas of the house where you spend time might help. that way you can chronicle the days events and move all the sheets to one main binder to share with a paranormal investigating group or whomever you arrange to help you. Remember to jot down the "who, what, where when and why's". Time, date, people involved, where you are, describe what happens and the emotions you experience.
I have noticed the number seven comes up in your posts. Seven dogs, seven blankets in the cold room...lol, I dont know if there is any signifigance in that, but it caught my attention. makes me think of protection...you have seven dogs to help you and seven blankets to cover you from the cold. Seven is a biblical holy number... in my opinion, what better protection than God is there? ;D Do you have a minister or clergyperson that you might feel comfortable discussing your situation with? I so hope that you can continue reaching out, dont get discouraged, things have a way of working out. If you still need resources, let me know! I am saying a prayer for you now! Regardless of your religion/belief system, faith and prayer can be your strongest tools to keep you calm and at peace in what seems to be a continual eye of the storm. (hugs)

[caralyna]

Thank you for the reply i will start noting everything down. I'm hopefully going to contact a medium today, last night was hard, my dog attacked me and after i finally got him in a cage, there was a 6 fool grey dog or dog shaped figure in the other room that was staring at me and then vanished.
I love my dogs and i've never had one attack, i've never seen a dog just change like that, especially the one that attacked me, he's such a shy and loving dog.

I never noticed the '7' thing lol i'd probably say it's more of a coincidence than anything seeing as now im at my parents and seeing as i got ben i think it was 2 months ago, there's 8 dogs in total now lol. The only thing to do with 7 that comes to my mind is my dads birthday lol but i hope that it is a holy sign maybe, i really need sleep! I look like a ghost myself! black eyes included lol! joking of course, but not joking about the sleep, i'm so tired it's crazy.

Also i have as of lately finally been diagnosed and it turns out i have OCD. Not schizophrenia so i'm finally glad that's over with. So that lines out any chance of it being my mind for sure! i knew i was fine! the only issue i have is cleaning too much lol. Thank you for replying, i'm going to start noting things down today, hope you're well! and if you aren't i hope you get better soon! take care!

~ Just an update! Spoke with a medium who said she picked up on a guy in a uniform and a child but my damn phone cut out...So im going to try ring her back tomorrow! Fingers crossed!