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Post by claddaghlass on Aug 23, 2010 8:38:30 GMT -5
My Dad thinks I could've been repressing it at a young age too. There was a lot of bad stuff going on when I was young. He thinks that blow I took to my head is what unearthed the rest of it.
Dad and everyone back was born with the abilities.
I remember being about two and people saying my brother had died. I'd be saying something along the lines of "What are you talking about? He's right there!" and I'd point to the corner of my crib.
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Post by angelica777 on Aug 29, 2010 10:56:51 GMT -5
Good Morning Everyone! I am on my second cup of coffee and still groggy. was reading back over these posts and am amazed at the strength we all have for each other. Again, thanks for being positive and honest. You guys are removed from my situation and can offer unbiased opinions. I was mulling over what my abilities are and was stumped. People like to talk to me. I can see their pain and fear and have and idea of the direction they are headed. Most of this is from my work in social services and sociology/psych background. I get so overwhelmed by the sadness sometimes, its so vast. I try to give hope and direction/options with referrals to somewhere better for each person. I am burnt out and am trying to avoid people and situations because it feels lie one more little dink in my emotional armor maybe the one to ...break me. I am stubborn, luckily. What to do now? What does the phrase "I dont want to fade away." mean? I had a little anxiety attack the other day, bad work stress, may lose my job, stress at home isnt bad,I just cant put up with any nonsense from anyone and tell them so. In this anxiety episode I kept saying I dont want to fade away and I am not going to fade away. I now thats not normal. I am pretty good at self monitoring my mental health. I made sure everyone knew where I was at and to steer clear. I dont know if I was more worried of entering alzheimers lie my mom or if the stress of feeling other people's pain has caused me to push further and further, distancing myself, to avoid pain. I dont now if my bad memory is more of a habit of pushing away, not listening to avoid stressors or a real cognitive issue. I have been diagnosed ADD and tested several times, I do poorly on memory tests. No psychosis,thankfully! Though somedays I want to whip some indiscriminate @ss!!!lol! Thats a lot of self disclosure, ladies. Sorry about that! Any ideas or input would be great!
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Post by GypsyMoon on Sept 1, 2010 9:07:18 GMT -5
It is better to burn out then fade away...Kurt Kobain
DO NOT GO GENTLE INTO THAT GOOD NIGHT By Dylan Thomas.. Do not go gentle into that good night, Old age should burn and rage at close of day; Rage, rage against the dying of the light. Though wise men at their end know dark is right, Because their words had forked no lightning they Do not go gentle into that good night. Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light. Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight, And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way, Do not go gentle into that good night. Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light. And you, my father, there on the sad height, Curse, bless me now with your fierce tears, I pray. Do not go gentle into that good night. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
That is one of my favorite poems everytime I hear or read it the message completly moves me to tears. Angelica you are a Hyper Sensitive you take/absorb feelings and energy. This can be dangerous because alot of the time the feelings you have are not your own. It is also very common for people with hyper sensitivity to have short term memory loss. Because our attention is being over written by emotion and feelings. Fact: people who are sad or depressed or angry do not absorb information as well as someone who is calm and happy. <-- that is where the ADD diagnose comes in. Your mind is wired different you absorb information quicker as emotions then from listening or studying. You need to do some simple meditation even if its 15 minutes after the kids are in bed. You need to clear an area in your home/meditiation spot somewhere you wont be disturbed. Bathroom soaking in a tub or bedroom this room should be cleaned scrubbed down and even a smudging wouldnt hurt either. You should have maybe a picture you like or paint the area a color that relaxes you. Burn some insence or get one of those scented wallflowers from bathshop or the plug in from Glade or burn a scented candle. Just relax breath feel all energy leaving you and focus this has got to be done in a clutter free room. More you go to your space and meditate the more relaxing you will feel the more energys from the day you have picked up will be gone and you will feel better. Bottom line is we will all Die or fade from this existance the key is to stop dying or fading away into the background of others emotions while your alive.
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Post by angelica777 on Sept 1, 2010 22:25:27 GMT -5
Thank you Gypsy....You said a mouthful, right on target too about hypersensitivity. I am going to take your advice about the 15 minutes of meditation/clearing my mind at the end of the day. The poem was beautiful.
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Post by angelica777 on Sept 5, 2010 2:07:25 GMT -5
Hey Gypsy,I havent taken your advice yet about the meditation. I have been working on making my bedroom/bathroom pleasant and clutter free...so I can have a peaceful place to destress and clear my mind from the daily bombardment. I do feel like I am working towards a solution... : )
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Post by ojibwe on Sept 5, 2010 17:46:33 GMT -5
Keep up the good work Hun!!! Anything you can do to make your life easier and less, "cluttered", the better!!! You are defiantly on the right track. I believe in you Sis, hang in there!!!
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Post by angelica777 on Sept 6, 2010 14:28:34 GMT -5
Thank you! {hugs}
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Post by claddaghlass on Sept 14, 2010 17:34:25 GMT -5
I've been having dreams lately. I'm wondering if they're future dreams.
I keep on seeing myself visiting, half investigating an old house. There's a man with me, dark hair, light shirt, blue jeans.
There's no real equipment with us. We're going on our feelings and instincts. It was kind of a "surprise!" visit from the entity.
The entity is male and not too friendly. He doesn't like "strangers".
I'm wondering if this could possibly be real or if I'm just imagining things?
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Post by GypsyMoon on Sept 14, 2010 20:30:38 GMT -5
If its a dream thats repeating . Then there is usually always something to it. Never take dreams/visions for granted. You could be doing an initial walk through with someone. Sometimes when I was called in to investigate places in Los Angeles it would be people from the Entertainment industry mind you this was like 15yrs ago. Before it was "cool to have a haunting or paranormal activity" so many would ask if I could investigate without equiptment.] Because of fear this might get leaked to media. After that I have had many recommendations from those people to even people who arent in the industry but still afraid that there home or family may end up on Youtube God forbid. So many times I will be asked to investigate without equiptment. Someone recently for example has requested when I am back in LA to go to there familys estate and look through "without equipment" These people are Chinese immigrants due to there beliefs and privacy they wish I fly solo. Also do a reading for them. so the type of investigations your talking about is not uncommon. But however I do believe this is not a vision of the future but more or less a vision or prophesy telling you to rely and trust your instincts more then what you actually find as "Fact". The man I feel your with is your soulmate and that you should go with your feelings more then your fears or logic. When loves involved all logic goes out the window and we go on feelings and instincts. The manifestation/spirit could be your personal fears manifesting intself into a male spirit who doesnt like "strangers" or could be fears of intimacy you have that need to be resolved before you can enter the next chapter in your life. I believe this dream is very prophetic I think your just looking at it to close. Like a Monet when you look at it close it looks like blotches and squiggles stand back youll see a masterpiece.
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Post by angelica777 on Sept 14, 2010 20:46:08 GMT -5
awesome words,gypsy!
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Post by claddaghlass on Sept 14, 2010 20:51:28 GMT -5
It's interesting how I see him off and on. Never entirely in focus but always there.
My friend told me I should be meeting him in April 2012. Why is it always April? Is it me? April seems to be a huge month for the family. If you go past life wise I also died in April when the Titanic sank.
That's interesting about the fears. They might be on a subconcious level that I need to see if I can tap into.
It's OT but I love Monet's work!
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Post by GypsyMoon on Sept 15, 2010 13:17:36 GMT -5
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Post by claddaghlass on Sept 15, 2010 13:24:48 GMT -5
Got it. Thanks. That's interesting about April. Sometimes I think some folks have months set aside for them. My grandmother's seems to be November as it's full of birthdays and anniversaries for her.
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Post by angelica777 on Sept 27, 2010 13:53:26 GMT -5
Hey everyone, My marriage is over, husband and stepdaughter left yesterday. Just me and mine now. For the best in a lot of ways, but still sad. I am doing alright, have to move forward. What do you see coming for me and mine? Thanks as always for your insight. : )
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Post by GypsyMoon on Sept 28, 2010 9:12:28 GMT -5
Wow I am so sorry to hear that. We can never prepare ourselves or face this pain completely untill it actually happens. I want to tell you I hate given these types of readings after something dramatic has happened like divorce/seperation/death etc,. I do feel that your ex was someone you look up to. Someone you have leaned on or confided in. There will be times that you will miss that kind of close intimate feeling. I do feel right now you are very artistic and creative you have felt like writing or painting or drawing and I do feel even possibly you might be in a class soon. "Group type atmosphere". Future I see strenth more of a spiritual path or journey learning love over hate or anger and alot of passion and desire. Although I believe if you do not keep your romantic head on straight and just go with your passions that your cravings might be to much. Or to put it in another way. you might repeat the same mistakes of your past. When you fall for someone you fall hard and it seems almost impossible for you to see things for what they are if you let passions over take you. Remember De-Nile is not just a river through Egypt. With that mind set you might be taken advantage of again. Just be wise of who you give your heart to, I will be thinkig of you and lighting a candle for your journey. Blessed be.
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