|
Post by claddaghlass on Sept 28, 2010 14:57:49 GMT -5
Hey everyone, My marriage is over, husband and stepdaughter left yesterday. Just me and mine now. For the best in a lot of ways, but still sad. I am doing alright, have to move forward. What do you see coming for me and mine? Thanks as always for your insight. : ) I'm sorry to hear that. **Hugs**
|
|
|
Post by angelica777 on Oct 9, 2010 12:55:39 GMT -5
Thanks Cladd, Havent been on here in a while. Had to mull over things, get loose ends tied up and scramble to keep the house running...was left holding the bag financially. Everything's past due by as much as 2-3 months. Getting a weekend sitting job soon to help pull me and the kids up. They are pitching in too, doing odd jobs, looking for part time work too. It's not that bad,just busy and worrisome. We have some peace and quiet now. Thats priceless! I have a cold so please feel sorry for me... I am a huge baby when I have a cold,lol. Enough about me, hows everything in your world? Are you still sewing frantically? Hope all has been good for you. : )
|
|
|
Post by angelica777 on Oct 9, 2010 13:33:42 GMT -5
Thank you, Gyspy. I am older and a little wiser, lol. I know my weaknesses pretty well. I see the patterns I have followed repeatedly, especially in choosing the men in my life. I have a tendency to rely on others and defer to others I perceive as stronger or smarter. I know this about me and have to make sure I rely on myself and my judgement/strength. Deferring to others, has led to making many poor decisions. Not any more! For a week or two before my husband left, I kept feeling like death was nearby. A sad song "Mad World" played over and over in my head repeatedly.I worried that either I was "losing it" or someone near me was going to pass. As soon as my husband and stepdaughter left, the song stopped. I did not expect things to end so suddenly, even though things have been rocky for a long time. I dont hold ill will against him or his children. I hope they do well,as I will always love them. I think this break was as beneficial to them as it was for us. They live near his family now which they will need and vice versa. I am hopeful about the future, even though money issues may be tough for awhile. I think self actualization is happening for me. I love to write and am very creative with words. I enjoy knowing and helping people from all different walks of life. I am excited to see whats next in this magical journey called life. : ) Thanks again for your insight and thoughtfulness. You are a very wonderful and caring person. This lil country girl never imagined being friends with someone like you, Cladd and Shawnee,which is way too cool, lol!!! I want to know how all of you are doing and send best wishes and thoughts to each and all.
|
|
|
Post by ojibwe on Oct 10, 2010 11:15:04 GMT -5
My Sweet Sister, You are so very strong, but I still wish that I could be there to hug you and wipe away your tears!!! I am with you in "spirit". I know you have felt me around, LOL!!! Stay true to yourself!!! I feel like you have forgotten, not only who you are, but what you are capable of!! It is OK to lean on those who love and care about you! I know that you don't want to, "bother" people. But if they love you... you are NEVER a bother!!! I am and will always be here for you Sis, ALWAYS!!! Hang in there... better days are coming, I PROMISE!!! It is not going to be easy, but you have to find that fire, that inner strength that you have freely given to others for so very long. It is not only time, but it is OK to keep some of that for yourself!! Know that you are NOT ALONE!!! Always with Love, Light and Laughter, Your Loving Sister, Shawnee
|
|
|
Post by GypsyMoon on Oct 11, 2010 17:50:07 GMT -5
I agree with Shawnee we have to look at this like late Spring cleaning. Take a positive note and dig your heels in girl. Youll make it and be better for it.
|
|
|
Post by angelica777 on Oct 17, 2010 11:07:35 GMT -5
I am woman, hear me roar!, lol I am sitting here looking at bills, I think were are going to make it! It will be tight, but doable..yes!!! I really appreciate the support, from yall. Hope you guys are all enjoying the wonderful weather. Here, we have blue skies, cool, but no jacket pants required during the day. Cool and clear bright starry nights...cant beat it, for sure!
|
|
|
Post by claddaghlass on Oct 21, 2010 13:38:39 GMT -5
After having a seriously rotten week I've been feeling massive job and care taker burn out.
I'm feeling better today than I did yesterday.
Either way I'm still wondering about my future and wondering if I'm even on the right path. That coupled with depression has been driving me insane. I realize no matter how positive someone tries to be there are going to be rotten days.
I know I've got to be a part of the solution if I want to go out but...where's the solution? There's not too many places out here.
I've been wondering when I'll be meeting my future husband? Will my children be my own biological? Women in my family hit menopause early so I get worried. I wonder when and where I'll meet him? If I'm on the right path? Things like that.
|
|
|
Post by GypsyMoon on Oct 23, 2010 13:10:54 GMT -5
I am going to be 40 in Jan, It was only this year 2010 I finally got my own home and finally a new car 2011 Kia seantra sometimes the most beautiful amazing flower in the garden blooms the latest. As for children I dont know if thats the right thing for me even adoption. I love babies dont get me wrong. It's teenagers and preteens I loose patients with. Maybe its because I am getting to old I dont know but I do know I have and am enjoying my 30's and I know I am going to love my fourtys. LOL.
|
|
|
Post by angelica777 on Oct 25, 2010 6:41:43 GMT -5
Erin, Just my thoughts on your situation from my perspective... Gussy up, and get out and go as much as possible. Make every excursion an adventure. Be open to the future and relax. The old quote about a watched pot never boils is applicable. Dont hunt for love...it will find you...the kid thing...if it supposed to happen it will. Just enjoy the priceless gift of now. You choose how to spend each moment. Just get your swanky self to the front of the shelf,lol!!!! You can do it Erin: )
|
|
|
Post by angelica777 on Oct 25, 2010 6:43:09 GMT -5
Ooo I need to tell you guys what I did this weekend...but Im out of time. Have a great monday!!!!
|
|
|
Post by claddaghlass on Oct 25, 2010 16:07:38 GMT -5
Erin, Just my thoughts on your situation from my perspective... Gussy up, and get out and go as much as possible. Make every excursion an adventure. Be open to the future and relax. The old quote about a watched pot never boils is applicable. Dont hunt for love...it will find you...the kid thing...if it supposed to happen it will. Just enjoy the priceless gift of now. You choose how to spend each moment. Just get your swanky self to the front of the shelf,lol!!!! You can do it Erin: ) Trust me, if I could I would. Where I'm at the nearest town is a 20 minute drive away and any events are well over an hour's drive away. Where I'm at it's pretty remote and there isn't much of anything here. Even my Dad complains of the lack of things around here at times and him doing that is saying a lot. I'm unemployed and I can't afford to go off to these or any real big events right now. I don't want to sound like a whinner but I feel like I am. Like a break out the violin moment. I'm just fustrated at everything going on right now. These past few days have really been difficult.
|
|
|
Post by angelica777 on Oct 26, 2010 7:03:10 GMT -5
{{{Hugs}}} Things will brighten up! Just be good to you.. pamper yourself when possible, long bath,walk, stretches, fun dancing music...ya never know, a really hunky single made just for Erin FED-Ex man could show up or a hot mechanic or a yummy policeman....ok...so we all know what Single Angelica has on the brain!!! lol Going to work...yall have a great tuesday!
|
|
|
Post by claddaghlass on Oct 26, 2010 13:07:27 GMT -5
That reminded me of an icon I saw once. You see a Scotsman's chest and part of his kilt. Underneath that is written "Take me to Valhalla."
I don't know when I'll be able to get over this fit of the giggles.
But in some seriousness, I do sometimes get a feeling that my future intended could be in some form of law enforcement.
|
|
|
Post by angelica777 on Nov 9, 2010 22:39:20 GMT -5
hottie uniformed man=wow! lol
|
|
|
Post by claddaghlass on Nov 10, 2010 14:20:15 GMT -5
That's it. When I go to Gettysburg or Brasnon for the Titanic Museum I'm dragging you with me.
|
|